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I'm adding this triad to my understanding of (the transformation proces of)my favorite trinity.

Thanks for your interesting analysis.

I'd like to add something my original story, and explain further the consequences of my hypotheses.

I have found that people who don't have the capability to love with their heart, here in the west, have learned to 'compensate' with very loving thoughts. Like I can experience with my mother, most of the time, her 'vibe' feels very loving. But since this love, comes only from the brain, there can be some moments where the love totally disappears. So where people with a heart, will have 2 vibes simultaneously, the brain and the heart. People without a heart will only have their brain vibe.

In a moment where I was traumatized, I know my mom felt very empathetic towards me. Context: my backdoor neighbor girl-friend when I was only 3 years of age, was going to move away. And I felt all sorts of bad. And my mother must have felt just as bad for me. But the consequence of her feeling bad for me, was that her loving vibe faded away. Because the brain can only have 1 emotion occupying it at once. Where a blond mother, would both have a loving vibe from her heart as well as the empathetic 'bad' feelings in her brain.

Why does this matter? Because people with a heart have learned, presumably through evolution, that they have done something bad, whenever someone doesn't love them. This is a totally natural way of responding. So in that moment, my body noticed my mother 'not loving', something about me. And automatically, every single emotion, was marked as bad or evil or guilty. Sadly without my permission.... And because always I have believed totally those emotions were bad and guilty, I did not allow myself to feel them. Which is how they have stayed there, and have had their impact on my life.

Now what do I do about this. I think there are only 2 solutions. Both of which are crazy. One is not to trust the love coming from my mother, and shut my heart for the love coming from my mother. Which feels very bad. But I think is better than not doing so, since I still feel good about this guilt, and allow myself to feel it. So it will not have a lasting 'traumatic' impact. The second one, is to change my memories. Change what I thought my mom or someone else or I felt about those moments. In order to allow myself to feel through these emotions. The future, I will be testing out these methods, on myself. And will report back my experiences. (Although, changing a memory might not be possible, I will be trying to feel all the feelings and thoughts and physical feelings associated with out I or they felt about me and my emotions)

In the last few years I have noticed that this process would happen in moments where I truly was kind of a victim, and my mother felt so too. And so I felt my mother didn't love those emotions, because if you don't have a heart you can only display one emotion at a time, which is the feeling bad and no longer the loving emotion, which made me automatically block them. I suspect this is also what happens with jewish men. It's a really strange process, where whenever the person without a heart actually might even show empathy, and feel it too, will make the person with a heart feel still unloved. And the person with a heart will block their emotions. Another example: one day I beat my mom with some kind of game, I don't remember which game. But her vibe changed totally from loving me, to not loving me and feeling bad about herself a little. So that not loving me is a ghost vibe that doesn't actually exist, but I perceive anyway, because that's what my body thinks it must mean, when I don't feel a loving vibe anymore. My body responded totally automatically, with blocking my emotions of wanting to win et cetera.